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Hey you~

Hey you~

You visited me so many months ago and our affair was long, hard and uncompromising. I never loved you but fell victim to all the promises you ever whisperd to me in the dark of night. I laughed at things you showed me...believed you when you told me how much work I could get done with you by my side~ I even believed you when you expressed how relaxed I'd be after you seduced me after the lights went out.... Your caresses were soft and comforting. I was so tired, so ready for what you promised me only to realize that you tricked me. You weren't on my side, didn't care about me and my well being. Just like your sister. She promised me so many things too but wouldn't allow me to just be quiet, wouldn't be still so I could rest, talked me to death to the point where I couldn't think. Your sister exhausted me just like you! I want to rid myself of both of you forever and I will soon master how to do JUST that! So tell your sister INSOMNIA to kick rocks and you, Mr. Insomnolence, will oneday be someone I speak of in past expressions. I don't want to see you anymore...PLEASE leave me alone~ I just want to SLEEP!!!! LOL!

Seriously,
Angela

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THE HOLIDAYS

Christmas is definitely my most favorite holiday of them all! I'm always in a good mood and it takes a lot to bring me down~ I fly out tonight to meet the party crew, which is my crazy family, and we're going to have a very very very long night filled with jokes, laughter and spirits!

There are tons of gifts to wrap and I'm sure that will become part of the evenings festivities! I'm excited for the holiday and the New Year that's approaching! I hope everyone has a great day!

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BACK TO ONE

Over the past 30 days or so, I have appreciated being home with my mom. My perspectives haven't wavered not one bit. I think it's important, that in life, we often spend so much time around people we don't really know and who don't really know us that we tend to loose ourselves inside of ourselves until we are able to reconnect with family. ONLY family knows you from birth to now and even if they haven't been around you in years, your foundation is still there. Yes, we all change but in our everyday lives, we tend to bend, stretch, cover, disguise, and eliminate things about ourselves when we're talking to, meeting, and interacting with friends, co-workers, and newbies.

I find it very awe inspiring to be able to recharge with my family. I can be me ALL day and I don't worry about what they think because they will tell you! LOL! But it's all in love.

If you are blessed enough to have family, reconnect on a regular basis and keep tabs on your truth. Don't get lost in life by disconnecting with what's truly real. If there is a rift in the family structure, FIX IT! Life is way too short. Have a conversation and smack each other for letting the rift go on for so long! Don't spend another minute letting time go by~





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NEW BEGINNINGS

I haven't been on here for quite some time but I have vouched to make a larger effort to blog! LOL There has been so many new developments in my life, and in trying to keep up  with everything, I've lost sight on blogging. My bad!

The past couple of years have been trying in so many ways but I'm FINALLY at a place of peace and understanding. So often in life, things make no sense in "real time". Only after time has passed and the ability to marinate on the events that have taken place, do we actually have the opportunity to SEE what it was we were supposed to be learning and if nothing else, trying to understand.

Someone posted something so profound and only now did I understand what it meant. It said, "The only people who need closure are those who aren't ready to let go". It was as if I had an epiphany upon reading those words. I now understand that if "letting go" hadn't happened, I would have been trapped in a world that wasn't meant for me. The world that has unfolded over the past 2 years is WAY closer to the life I was destined to have. I know that with everything in me! I humbly thank the "let go" because I have fully embraced the "new", the "possibilities", the "blessings", with all the energy, passion, zest, and excitement that I knew was still inside of me. 2012 is the brightest that I've ever seen FOR ME! However, I'm also aware that no matter what obstacles, challenges, and redirects that I encountered, I never took my eyes off of my abilities and my drive to ALWAYS "do me" no matter what.

I'm excited for the future! People, live and try to find the "YOU" in the midst of chaos and confusion. No matter what is going on in your life, "YOU" can't be taken away. You are all you have and if you're not taking care of "YOU" no one else will! Love yourself from the deepest place! Never leave you for anyone and keep your eyes on YOUR prize!

Be blessed!


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WHAT?

Do you ever ask youself what you're doing? What did I do yesterday? What was I thinking? What am I thinking? What direction do I want to go? What confuses me most is what makes me continuously keep asking myself what? LOL

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REVELATIONS~

Sometimes revelations come in the most obvious forms from the most non-obvious sources. I am thankful for my revelation today and embrace the knowledge that was given to me in the kindest and most caring way. I breathe in and out and release that which I now know to be truth from which I formed as pure speculation. Right on time, as usual~ Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

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ALIGNMENT

I remember my mother always telling me that there's your plan and then God's plan. I now understand what she meant. No matter what I try to do to make things in my life happen faster, he just won't let it happen until it's time. I now know that there are elements of life working behind the scenes. Nothing will happen until everything is in alignment to the blueprint that is my life. I have faith and trust that my time is drawing near based on the elements that have been shown to me. I have been humbled beyond reproach and challenged to the core regarding what my abilities and talents are and how great I am at those abilities and talents. I am within the quiet before the storm. However, this storm is a good storm. I look forward to it now that I have had ample time to align my mind, body and spirit for my life ahead. I wait~ Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

Project

Just wrapped last night on the movie I was doing and had a really good time. I have to admit that I missed the acting thing. I had someone ask me once if I did but at the time, I truly thought I was done with it all. He definitely knew me better than I knew myself. I give full credit to his insight. I feel rejuvenated and full again...whole even. Creativity is just a part of who I am and I have to always be in the presence of situations that will allow me the ability to create in some form or fashion. I'm happiest when in the creative zone. I know this now. Maybe I always have but wanted other things more.... Now, I just have to go inside myself and figure out how to balance it all. Sacraficing one for the other in NEVER necessary. The obstacles aren't that complicated. LOL Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

WRITING

I write often but have come to realize after reading some of my older work that my mind just like my body has to be constantly exercised. Seriously. When I looked back over my work, my mind was deeper; writings more complicated; thoughts seemed to flow without pause. However, lately, road blocks and avalanches have invaded my mind creating obstacles that are taking major time to clear. So from this day forward, I will begin again with poetry...everyday. I won't necessarily post the poetry but I believe poetry makes you go deeper than just writing. Metaphors and prose have to make sense; play on words and soul searching emotion. Gotta get it back. Have to people. Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

ORGAN DONATION

I know that the operative word in my title is "DONATION", but shouldn't there be some sort of compensation given to the donors (deceased or alive) who donate their organs? Hospitals and insurance companies are making millions from these procedures. I know that the donor should just feel good about the fact that they saved a life. That's what every article I've read had to say about the donor. But hospitals don't reciprocate that, nor do insurance companies. They aren't holding raffles or lotteries for free procedures, hospital stays or anything related. The donor could be given a great vacation to recover in. They could be given a medical voucher for future medical attention for a year or more. They could be given a percent of cost. Now, yes, I'm aware that there are crazies out there who will just start donating just for money, but most hospitals have a very long and arduous screening process for donations of any kind. Most won't want to go through that. I just feel as if with all the money these centers, institutions, and insurance companies are making, the actual donor should be given a bit more than a thank you and a scar as a reminder of their kindness. Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

SWITCHING GEARS

HOW DO YOU MOTIVATE YOURSELF TO FOLLOW YOUR GOALS EVERYDAY AND NOT PROCRASTINATE? Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

SMELLING ROSES

When does life become so chaotic that you pass by the flowers without smelling them? You continuously put REAL friends on hold by not returning calls? You don't visit family as often as you should? What has happened in your life that makes you refuse to put on the brakes or at least your hazard lights? Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

JOURNALING

I use to journal all the time and I was so much more relaxed and mentally balanced. I keep so much crap stuck in my head that the vehicle of journaling helped me in ways one could never imagine. How many people out there faithfully journal. I have stacks of day-timers and diaries that could make a pretty interesting book one day (wink) but I began to feel as if I was cheating myself in the process. By that I mean that I felt like if all I wrote was what I did in a day, it was useless. What about the feelings of the day? How I was affected by people and elements and events of my day? How about my thoughts and analogies? Those are the elements that clog me and hinder my creative processes and then I wonder why I have "WRITER'S BLOCK". My mother purchased a journal for me for my birthday that just passed and I haven't touched it. It's beautiful and I want to utilize it and not waste it on my schedule. I have to channel my inner person regarding my thoughts and views for journaling. I miss it and like with everything else, you just have to sit down and "JUST DO IT!" Who's with me? Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

LIVE YOUR LIFE

It has been a few weeks since my last blog. However, life continues to amaze me. We lost Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson on the same day. I mourn. I'm surprised. I'm taken aback and mortified at how fast life comes at you when you expect it and least expect it. I have spent the last few days reflecting on the silly shit that I have often wasted my time, energy and mind reflecting on, trying to figure out and stressing about...all of which I've found truly irrelevant against these recent deaths and tragedies of life that the world has encountered. Life is WAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY to short to sweat the small stuff. Life is way to short to stress over elements of life that come like clockwork every single month. Tomorrow is not promised. Telling someone that you will see them later...is not promised. Taking another breath after hanging up the phone with someone is not promised. Your next successful flight is not promised. So with these types of thoughts swirling through my mind, I have to say that I have found solice in the fact that I have lived my life with only two regrets but nothing that I harp on. If I died tomorrow, I have lived an extremely good life filled with struggles, joys, and TONS of surprises. Everyday is a new opportunity to be happy; to fulfil a dream; to tell everyone that you love them and to make sure that there is nothing to apologize for because you are only indulging in things that make you happy. LIVE YOUR LIFE. We are only given one. People who tell you what you should or should not be doing with yours should not be given the satisfaction of succeeding with the redirection of your goals and drive. Follow your path, your destiny and your mind. Make responsible and personal choices that make YOU smile. Wake up EVERY morning and give thanks for being given the opportunity to see another day, your loved ones and to just simply be. Just know that this morning and tomorrow morning, so many people will no longer be. LIVE YOUR LIFE!!!!!! R.I.P. Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

OPPORTUNITY

Does anyone ever feel as if life's opportunities always seem to bump into others and bypass you? I used to feel that way until I stared makng moves that benefited me. I began realizing that for so long my focus was everyone else. I was a blessing to so many people because of the help I gave so freely but neglected to be a blessing to myself. If all of my energies were being spent on others, then how could opportunities find me and my needs? I can remember on several occasions sitting back and marveling at those around me fortune, happenstances and progress. I can remember feeling envy, jealousy and hateration. Yeah...I hate to say it but I was a hater. Until I realized that I didn't have to hate on others. I needed to focus more on myself and my goals and aspirations. My ambition shifted and opportunities flowed. I'm in a better space now. I still help others but I make sure that I help mself too. Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com

What inspires me?

There are so many things that inspire me but nothing specific. I tend to be a mood person and with that, depending on how I feel will detrmine what inspires me most. A crisp fall morning, a cup of perfect coffee, a child playing, dogs running or rain. Ok, I retract my statement because rain definitely inspires me. Shopping inspires aspects of my brain but not full aspiration. People in great spaces in their lives inspire me. Visit me at www.AngelaArdis.com